Que Sera Sera

Whatever will be, will be.

This song comes into my head often lately. As I stand at a crossroads waiting for a directional arrow and truly not knowing which path to take.

When I moved to Vietnam almost 2.5 years ago, I had no plan in mind. How long I would stay or what would happen. I just came and let the wind take me. I still have no plan but the wind is getting a bit chilly lately.

Following on from my last post, I am still waiting to see what will happen with mr Wonderful. We had an amazing final holiday in Mui Ne to say goodbye to each other and it was a lovely reminder about why I love Vietnam so much.

Gorgeous weather, great people and just fun (most of the time).  Vietnam can be the most random, contradiction of a country.   There are days I love it so much I want to sing all day, and other days where I just want to scream and get on a plane home.   If you plan a 'quiet' weekend you end up clubbing until 5am and if you are up for a big night you find yourself at home on the sofa by the witching hour.

The weekend in Mui New was all of that and more.  Here are some pics to prove my point:

Drunken Shananigans the night before we left. 
As always in Saigon, totally unplanned and random
Wednesday night that ended up for some at 5am. 

The man and his Heineken.  Always together. (and his phone).
  So much for alone time.

Together for now... but already feeling sad.

The Love Shack.

The View.   Amazing.  Although the half naked russians
on the beach were a bit distracting.

The white sand beaches of Mui Ne.   So relaxing and beautiful.

Table for Two please.  WIth a view. 
The food was mainly Vietnamese but we were happy.

My favourite bell boy ever. 
Love a man that treats me like a lady.

And off we go back to Saigon.  
Sad but calm.  In love but breaking apart.

For anyone going to Mui Ne I highly recommend getting a driver & car. 
We were able to relax for the long trip back... and talk... and talk.

But alas, we can talk forever but it won't change the situation.  For now he has returned to Congo and Sth Africa.   I am playing the waiting game and trying to work out plan B for myself.

The big decision for me right now, regardless of what happens with mr Wonderful, is do I or don't I stay in Vietnam?   I do love it but I am also a bit over it.  I love the company I work for but as with my personal life, I'm not sure they love me back.   I am ready to go home, but I also want to stay.  So, rather than make a decision, I am just sitting and waiting.   What will happen with my love?  What will happen at work?  Who will show commitment?  Who won't?

From there I will know my fate.  Either way I know it will be great.  I have a wonderful family, great friends.  A job that I love and I'd be happy to stay... or go.

So... Que Sera Sera.  Whatever will be will be.  The future's not ours to see. Que Sera Sera.